2008 was a happy happy sort of year when I lived life careless, or simply said, freaked out. It was a breezy year full of nice nice things, mostly. I could take life for granted and live it as it comes. It is probably not because I was very composed, but because life was predictable. I usually knew that every tomorrow is likely to be as good a day as today. The whole year, from the very first day, till the very last day, lasted happily. The new year has begun with a sense of loss. The assured days will no longer be. Sometimes it feels like being carried to a cold and windy place and then being left along there; like walking on the banks of a beautiful river, and suddenly slipping into the cold water. I wish the days stayed like the last year.
But it is not very bad either. I could see these days coming, and spent some time preparing for them. Instead of spending time chilled and easy as I did for the whole year, I am organizing self to do more work, be methodical and spend time constructively than before, which hopefully fills up the losses. To some extent. Hopefully. Right now, I have managed to stay cheerful. I expect me to remain so in the coming days.
So the last two weeks have been spent trying to discipline myself. I wake up earlier than I did, go for a jog regularly, do more work than I did and have been meditating more regularly than before. May be somethings happen just to keep you on your toes, and might eventually turn good.
